To my future Beloved,
I feel as if half of these letters will be me apologizing, ha. I mean, I guess I am getting experience practicing humility since I hate admitting I’m wrong. Except, I’ve gotten lost for a few months now and am just now acknowledging it. So maybe I’m not quite learning the lesson…
Waiting for you is so hard. Waiting to not have sex with anyone but you on our wedding day is even harder.
It’s so much worse when I am distracted by the ways of the world. When I am not in communion with Christ or have my focus on what is important, I find it so easy to get distracted. I have been settling. I have been tempted to go with the partial instead of waiting for the full promise of God.
I hope you are doing well. I hope you are continuing on your journey with Christ, growing more and more in your giftings and anointing. I will pray if you are discouraged in any way like I am most often, that God will encourage you and continue pushing you on in your walk with Him and living a life of purity. I will pray if you have lost your way like I have, that God will bring mentors in your life (or other ways) to help put you back on the path God has in store for you, like He did for me. Which, if that last part happened because you were praying for me, thank you!
I am so sorry for going down my own path. I am so humbled and grateful we serve a God who is a God of more than second chances. He is a God of justice who also extends mercy. I am currently reaping from my mistakes and will have to go through a hard season of healing, but I am so blessed to have a God that’s going to go through this season with me every step of the way. This season will hold the most growing I’ve ever done. I hope by the time we meet, I will be the woman you have been praying for. Obviously not perfect, but one walking in her calling, not being moved around by the wind and waves of the world.
I can’t wait to meet you. I can’t wait to dream of our future with you. I can’t wait for so many things.
But I must wait.
I can’t settle again. I don’t want to dig myself a hole that’s even harder to get out of than the one I was just in.
I will wait for you. I will wait. I will.
May God’s grace extend on our relationship, even though it has not started yet. May He pave the way for an incredible earth shaking that will come from our future marriage. I just know He has incredible plans for our lives together.
With love from me to you,
Woman of Purity~