These demons inside my head
I can’t quiet them.
I can’t silence them.
They’ve won this battle over my mind:
Worthless
Unwanted
Undesirable
Not worth the time
Not worth the effort
Never good enough
Always wanting what others have.
Never receiving what I desire most.
I put myself out there
Only to be rejected time and again.
My heart withers,
As I hang up my foolish dreams
Hatred
Shame
Pain
Turn it off!
Shove it away!
This isn’t worth it!!
Closed heart.
Thrown away dreams.
Never again starting over.
I’m done.
It’s not worth it.
These stupid desires
These stupid dreams
Never for me
Why even try?
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.
.
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… yet a quiet part of me whispers
“Please, prove me wrong.”
Woman of Purity 